Still No News

I'm really getting tired of posting that there is nothing to post. Referrals have been issued and across the world, people are feeling that same sense of euphoria that we did over a month ago. My feelings have gone into the crapper as, once again, we are held hostage to a date by unknown sources. In two days we will have gone five weeks with no news. It's becoming clearer and clearer that not only will be not travel at six weeks like other folks, we may not even travel at 8! I'll be lucky to see Leena before Christmas!

We thought we'd get our TA last week, which we did not. Our agency said we could expect it maybe after the first of September, which it is now three days later with still no TA. It's so frustrating to know that other folks not only have their TAs, but they have their departure dates and the whole shooting match. We have nothing but photographs and a gaping whole in our hearts that continues to grow with each day. Our life is on hold and our daughter is that much further away. Why is it that everyone else has their TA and will have their child within two weeks and we're about to approach five weeks with nothing?

Frustrating, indeed. Aggravating, very much so. Unnerving, you bet. You want to be angry, but at whom? So, you stare at an empty computer screen and wait for a note that never comes or a phone that never rings.

As I've said before, adoption is not for the faint of heart. It will take what heart you have and rip it to shreds and serve it up to you on a cracker (a stale one at that).

Until tomorrow, when we still will have no news to report and our daughter will be closer and closer to getting older and older without us. Whatever path we're on, it's a long one with many a closed door on it that we haven't been given a passcode for.