April Referrals Not Good

I've gotten reports from a few folks that they've dutifully been keeping up with our blog. Meanwhile, I have not. It's been some time since I've posted, so I'm hoping to catch up this evening. Of course, given the events of the day, my news seems insignificant.

The referrals for April came out on the 5th and, sadly there were only two days referred. This brings the calendar (in case you can't read the text/print on the left) to October 27. In other words, the next batch of referrals will be for October 27 and beyond. How many days? Only China knows. There are rumors and our agency told me that there "might" be another set of referrals at the end of this month and that they "expect" they will cover more than two days. As always, there is a lot of speculation and guessing and no concrete facts. So, I had my most recent adoption melt-down, bawled my eyes out (which is a great emotional cleansing), leaned on the support of my dear husband (DH in adoption lingo) and heaved a sad sign of depression along with everyone else in my 11 Moons adoption group. As bad as things are for us, think of the poor families who have a LID of October 26-31. They felt certain that two weeks ago they would have received their referrals and got highly short changed. I can't begin to imagine the despair they must be going through. We're very fortunate to have the thoughts and prayers of family to support us and our dear friends John and Nancy who adopted their dauther Addie last summer. They know what we're going through and make sure and check in on us from time to time to see how we're doing in all this.

This past Friday, I saw a LadyBug in our driveway which I'm told is a good luck symbol in Asian culture. And, last night I dreamt of the baby for the first time in our entire adoption process. I dreamt that we had come home with our daughter and she was very tiny, more like a four month old, with a head full of dark, black hair. At one point, I remember her making a sad face before she began to cry and I kept thinking maybe I should just give her the thick porage-like formula at scalding temperatures like she's used to to make her happy. But, more than anything, I was so excited to have finally saw at least one form of her face, even if only in my dreams. I've heard of expectant Mothers having dreams liek this before they know they're pregnant. I know my cousin Richard dreamt my little sister Tracy (his wife) was pregnant with a son before she told him the news. I'm hoping this, too is a positive sign. After all, what have I got to lose? More sleep? More calm? More sanity?

As always, I will keep our faithful readers posted on all news related to Pumpkin's adoption. Thanks for keeping your eyes peeled to our site and hopefully we'll have better news this month.